He was sleeping in his car too, camping at Frog Falls with a kayak on his roof. I am a mama bear when at a backcountry campsite with O alone and so had my guard up at first, but he put me at ease almost instantly. He was a traveler, the kind I’ve met at hostels in San Francisco and South Africa and I instantly felt his heart was good, the kind of eyes that you know before you even know them. The same eyes as every traveler. Searching and hoping.Read More
This ones for the mamas
All the mamas out there doing it in any way you are doing it
Giving your all for them
Cause let’s face it
It isn’t easy
Your heart grows 1000x it’s size
I wish for you to taste freedom with every move you make
to dance in the rain while others are staring at the lake
to sit in little market shops choosing which crystal to take
to breathe in the wild air with every breath you take
Sunkissed skin & salty hair
I’ve always been a pioneer
now here I am
meet mama tamara
I am not always as patient as I would like
I’m not as stoic as the sea
but how thankful I am
that your soul found me
When we think of "single" mom
we think of someone working two dead end jobs
to make a living
not someone who just got the (two) back to back dream jobs of her life
we think of dead end husband
who cheated and left
not someone who is there every step of the way
infuriating or not
a partnership where forgiveness is served daily
harmonious coparenting the goal
I had a deeply reverent morning, arising at dawn, pulling my laptop into bed to write poetry, keeping the lights low, candles lit, strong drum beats on the Bluetooth I crawled onto my yoga mat and had a prayerful practice, followed by a yoga nidra by the Guru himself - Yogi Amrit Desai.
These mornings are very, very rare for me..Read More
Reading Osho's the book of children and it's bringing up so many amazing points to consider, but this one is big and one I think of already a little even though I only have a 10 month old.
What sort of education do I want him to have?
I mean, some people are already thinking about what kind of schools to put their children in. Montessori? Waldorf? Forest schools? Public schools? There's so many options and no real answers. The signifiant point to consider is this: by the time one is learning something in today's world, it's already changing.Read More
Today I am lucky.
My day started with a (almost) nervous breakdown. You see, my son is starting to walk. He's getting into everything he possibly can, pulling up in his crib all night wanting to party, and starting to understand just how much I am not always directly beside him.
As a momma who is living on my own with this babe, life just got suuuuuuper interesting.Read More
what a word.
what a role.
what a challenge.
what a joy.
the biggest questions
come from others
what school will he attend?
how many words can he say?
is he walking
Over the past few months, Tyler and I have been taking an Integral Parenting course that has absolutely blown my mind. The work that Miriam, our facilitator, has done to prepare this course is nothing short of extraordinary, and so many elements of the course have been applicable to other areas of my life, not just parenting.Read More
One day when I'm old and gray, I'll remember the sweet precious few years where you smelled of brand new baby and sour milk. Where you looked at me with a glint in your eyes, your little cheeks coming to round into that smile, that would melt my heart like warm butter on toast.Read More
If you only knew
the light that you brought into my life
upon your soul entering mine
you helped me to see so clearly
to shed the unnecessary
to focus on the light
You lit me up
From the inside out
And it's started a fire
That will keep burning