Duality & Polarity
City Life vs the Cabin in the Woods (up the Mountain)
My whole adult life has drawn me further and further back to nature. Remembering the essence of who I am as my complete bliss self, this is done for me in the company of tall trees, huge mountains, and blue skies. I literally tear up at the beauty of the world when I'm walking through a forest. I see the chaos of a forest as sacred. I feel reflected in the eyes of the animals watching me. I feel seen, heard, and also completely free of any need to do or be anything other than what I am. I feel like I could dissolve into the essence of what's around me and exist in my most expansive state. I feel like I am breathing in all of what is. I feel connected to the rhythm of life.
But there's another side of me that has always felt such a draw to 'the party' I like to call it. The city part of me that 's drawn to arts & culture, sporting events and the night life. I love dimly lit bookstores with thick poetry being read aloud with a glass of wine in my hand and a room buzzing with conversation and the excitement of human connection. I love blues bars and dance parties and even at times, the streets of Vegas. The lights and the general vibe, it strengthens me. I feel the beat of it in my heart, the pulse of a loud night out in my veins. And yet somehow, in this noise, this party, I also feel connected to the rhythm of life.
It's interesting to me, this polarity that I have. How can one who feels so alive in the fresh, quiet spaces of nature become almost vibrational in the company of loud music and conversation? I wouldn't say that I fill up in both places, as one definitely takes more energy from me. I've gone to that place less and less lately, but every so often I get a glimpse of it and I remember how good it feels, the air thick with excitement as everyone talks heatedly and spills their drinks and laughs with abandon, hugging and touching those around them. This is an integral part of the human experience, of being alive.
I have always thought that liking one is bad. That I shouldn't be so drawn to 'the party'. I've sold all of my things and moved out to the woods before. And then I moved back to the city - for a man - for love. But I didn't feel at home in the city, as always. I feel on the outside of things, until I'm within them. So as I'm sitting here, heading back to the zen life on top of a mountain, I realize that there is no good or bad. No right or wrong. There is only what is.
Polarity is complimentary forces that work together to create balance, whereas duality is the belief in opposing forces that conflict with each other and create chaos.
The idea of this life is to witness the union of opposites. To experience polarity and to allow it to be a balance. And to continually come back to the way of the middle path, with no preference.
To allow a preference is to judge. To create chaos and conflict. To allow both to be and to accept all that is.
This is probably going to be a blog where people are like "OH MY GOSH IT'S JUST A YOGA BLOG" but this is what yoga truly is.
Yoga is not the postures themselves.
Yoga is not looking cute in tight clothes.
Yoga is the union of opposites.
It's about accepting ourselves as we are, and the world as it is. It's about becoming the observer of our life and not clinging to a preference for one way or the other.
It's the way of the middle path.
So when you notice duality in your life, observe your inclination for one, or the other, or maybe both or neither. And just allow yourself to come back to the middle. Live in one for a bit, or the other. There's no right or wrong, or good or bad.
There just is.